Today I missed you. I missed jumping out of bed with the illusion of saying good morning to you.
Today I missed you when I went to Publix and saw the bakery. I remembered how much you liked your doughnut.
Today I missed you when I went to church. I remembered we used to sit on the first row
Today I missed you when I went to Macy’s to get a present and remembered how much you enjoyed going shopping.
Today I missed you when arranging a drawer, I saw the domino box that you enjoyed so much playing.
Today I missed you when I was organizing my necklaces and saw a necklace that you designed.
Today I missed you when I saw the room and saw your empty bed
Today I missed you when I watched your videos and smiled at your wittiness.
Today I missed you when I saw the chair in my living room where you sat when we had our family gatherings.
Today I missed you when I found a piece of paper you had written that I have not seen in years
Today I missed you when the night came and suddenly the house felt so empty
Today I missed you because you were more than my mother, you were my friend. You were my companion. You were my teacher. You were my confidant. You were my reason to be. Because you were part of me.
Today I missed you…what am I saying? I miss you every day not only today because you were the center of my life, and everything gravitated around you.
You were that why. You were that what for, and it did not end with your death.
Your shining light has stayed with me to guide me, to inspire me, and to make me whole again.
Love
Ligia del Carmen
