But, if I was feeling better…Poem of Grief

But, if I was feeling better …

Why does this empty feeling suddenly come to me?

But, if I was feeling better…

Why do I suddenly have this uncontrollable urge to cry?

But, if I was feeling better…

Why suddenly when looking at your photo I can’t hold the tears?

But, if I was feeling better…

Why when hearing that song that reminds you, I start crying?

But, if I was feeling better…

Why, when I see your clothes, what I want is just to smell it?

But, if  I was feeling better…

Why, when realizing you died a month ago, my heart skipped a beat?

But, if I was feeling better…

 

Ligia M. Houben